Rolling The Dice

Some people think that I am not mature enough in life at my age, that I lack a sense of responsibility in life, but what can I really say, sometimes I feel like I've been in and out through things that I should not have at that stage in life. Many things have gone horribly wrong in life, things that were so disturbing, so painful that it kept putting me down all the time. Sometimes due to misjudgments, miscalculations, I had to face a lot of problems, lost a lot of hope in life, got sick and tired of every bit happing in life at some points, but I knew I had to move on. Some problems just kept following on like a shadow that is always behind us, like a curse. Trying to overcome it was like mounting through something very high, did not know whether to give it up or let is aside and move on.

But then I look at others, others who have gone through ever more, much more worse in life than me. And they've lived on, live on facing everything without any complain, living like it is just another day in life. Like that I still have to learn to get myself used to all that worst in life, and stand up on my two feet on my own and put up a fight with life.

It is so very true that we have to roll our own dice in this game called life. Sometimes we get good numbers, sometimes we don't, sometime we get the brighter side, sometimes not. All we have to do is to keep the faith in ourselves and carry on, taking steps forward in life!

2 Years On @ HDFC Bank

Wooah! What two years (two whole years in HDFC Bank, my very first job), so many ups and downs, I've now completed two years in HDFC Bank, joint it on the 22nd of August, 2008, my first job and two years seem like they just rushed through (too many things happening in life and at work, just did not know how the years just passed on by).

So, as I remember, I got a call from the HDFC Bank HR department, and I obviously had a go at it, gave my interview luckily got selected. Two years since then, it has been a great experience at HDFC Bank, learnt a lot, and still gearing for more.

Jack Of It All, And The Master Of None

In this world, today that we live in - if you say that you are the Master of it all, people are going to laugh at you, call you names, they'll never believe in you, they'll prove it to you that they know much better than you and then make you feel down and low. So today, in this insane world that we all live in, the sanest thing to say would be that I'm the Jack of it all and the Master of none.

Each day there is something new that comes up, something that may seem to be impossible but is so true. There are so many new things to be learnt, so many new horizons to explore, there are so many things out there to be conquered, to be seen, felt, and touched. There are so many amazing wonders out there, just waiting to pop up from ones wildest imaginations.

There is so much to see, so much to say, so much to learn, each step of out life is a new lesson to be learnt, another chapter in the book of our lives - so how can we ever be the Masters? How can we know all of it, when we know only so little? That is the only reason why I say that it is a sane choice to say, "I'm the Jack of it all, and the Master of none" and I say that is my mind and hearty open wide and clear.

Killin Time

And so, life goes on, a little small picnic here and there, but, I'm still not satisfied with it, because my heart wants more and more. I need a bigger break just to refresh myself completely, or a nice relaxed holidaying somewhere it would feel like Heaven - Yeah! That's what I'd love.

So now the branch has changed again, and don't know now where else would I be getting another transfer, or would I call it the quits? Well, till then it's running smooth and there are no such problems in life.

Whatz Up Next?

People always have to say something about you, some always talk good about you, some talk bad, some people, straight at your face talk of you, good as well as bad, these are the people who are the ones whom you call your best friends.

Well, I'm going through a lot of ups and downs in life, having to make a few small but very effective decisions on my own. Still clueless about where to my life is leading me to, but I'm just going in my own was, walking on and on and on, till the day comes when I'd have to find a place for me to finally rest. Now it feels like I'm walking on something completely unknown, earlier had the support of my family, so I knew kind-a where to walk, but then too there were many difficulties along the way, broken bridges, rocky roads, dark rooms, endless ways to go, but only one to choose. But now I'm kind-a walking alone, in a dark, dark unknown road, saw a light somewhere, tried to run towards it but fell down, I fell down somewhere in the middle of nowhere, there seems to be a way out but that way is not too easy to be found. In this life's mystery, everything seems to be faded.