Where Do We Draw The Line

On your palm an endless wonder
Lines that speak the truth without a sound
If it can't be my own destine
Tell me where do we draw the line

The word is out, and did you ever think, this world that we all live in is going to fade away. And we all will see our end with our own two eyes and inside those million other innocent lives that we relate to somehow with a common bonding that of Humanity. But where is this Humanity gone? It's gone, faded away and we are not brothers anymore, we are someone complete unknown. From the bottom our broken soul, to the height of our wildest insanity, we were completely unaware of all that we were up to, of where we were heading to or what we were doing to this world - breaking it apart, bit by bit - piece by piece, until it was too late for us to realise that it is now all over.
The lines are drawn, the game is set, the plan is sketched, and the ones responsible for these lines are the first ones targeted for their own doom. It is here where we now draw the line, a line in between you and me, a line in between the rich and the poor, a line between the black and the white - or these are lines drawn between Mankind and God? Who knows, but we did try to play God, every one of us, but we never learnt to forgive, that's all whatever went wrong. But tell me, why is this line drawn anyway? For what reasons, and who is responsible for it all? Who is the one who can be blamed for it - maybe we all. Yes, we all are to be blamed for these lines, lines of division and destruction. A line drawn to seek unworthy power - Playing the God or playing the fool - Whatever we have done here, is there any return - A return back to our innocence?

Federer Wins The ATP Title... But Nadal Still #1

Flawless Roger Federer floors Rafael Nadal to win ATP title... But Nadal continues to lead ATP rankings, continues to be world number one on the Tennis Court...

Roger Federer overcame Rafael Nadal 6-3, 3-6, 6-1 to win the fifth year-end title of his career with victory in the final of the ATP World Tour Finals. He claimed his fifth titles this season, three from his last four events. With a record of 16 Grand Slam titles, this is his 66th career trophy. Although he closed the gap on Rafael Nadal in the men's ATP tennis rankings with his three set victory, he is still quiet a long way away from the number one position - Currently Nadal is with 12,450 points and Federer is quiet far behind with 9,145 points (the Spaniard still has an advantage of more than 3,000 points).

This victory is Federer's eighth win against 14 defeats against Nadal, but most of those defeats have come on the Clay Court, where Nadal is the King, where as here, in the indoor surface, the Swiss world number two now is 3-0 (his previous wins coming in Shanghai at the year-end event in 2006 and 2007. ) up against Nadal.

Nadal had a dream year (2010), Rafael Nadal is the latest, and by far the youngest entrant in a very small club of tennis superstars to have conquered all four slams. The all-star pair have won 21 of the last 23 Grand Slams (12 for Federer, nine for Nadal).

Federer has ended the season in winning a style against Nadal, but Nadal is someone who now may be hard to overtake, the way he is going about with his finest tennis - Indeed, Federer is a Master, but Nadal too has proven to be just that - another Master. And both these players are simply too good, they are truly the finest tennis players ever to play this game, who, at the top of their forms can floor their opponent any time.

ATP top 10:

1. Rafael Nadal (Spain) - 12,450pts.

2. Roger Federer (Switzerland) - 9,145pts.

3. Novak Djokovic (Serbia) - 6,035pts.

4 Andy Murray (Britain) - 5,760pts.

5. Robin Soderling (Sweden) - 5,580pts.

6. Tomas Berdych (Czech Republic) - 3,955pts.

7. David Ferrer (Spain) - 3,735pts.

8. Andy Roddick (US) - 3,665pts.

9. Fernando Verdasco (Spain) - 3,240pts.

10. Mikhail Youzhny (Russia) - 2,920pts.

Heading To Nowhere?

Long is the road, it is not clear, it is not smooth, it is a bumpy ride to where ever we go. We all here are travelers, travelling here in this place called Earth, meeting up with people, making and breaking up things that we do not even really know of. In this so called life, we have seen and been through a lot of things, some things amazed us, and some things made us laugh, cry, horrified, sing, dance, play, possessive, egoistic, selfish, and a lot, lot more. Some things made us who we really are, where as some things made us what we are not. In simple terms, we lived our very lives here as it went on by us in every day to day affair.

We are living in this world that we did not make, it has been given to us as a gift, a gift, and we also need to protect and keep it intact forever, and not break it into bits and peaces. But what are we up to here? What at we doing to this Earth? Tearing it apart, breaking it one by one into bits and peaces only to serve our own never ending (undying) needs to be selfish and satisfied. Being self centered and egoistic, we have created a huge gap between ourselves and this gap seems to be growing day by day.

We are all living here today, but what does tomorrow really hold in for us? Where will we be heading for tomorrow - Nowhere? The Earth in itself is loosing out, it is dying now, and we Humans are the only ones responsible for it. We are killing the Earth everyday, piercing it, burning it, demolishing it with every thing we do. Have we triggered the ecological activities of the Earth to move along faster? We can feel it, it is warming up, the weather cycle is not proper; the ice is melting at an alarming rate.

Of all that I am completely aware of is that it won't take time for all this to trigger the End of the World, the Yellow Stone Park Volcano could erupt any time, and if it does, it could swallow up the entire globe, then there is lodes of methane trapped inside ice, if it is exposed through the melting of the ice, it might again trigger up another big bang here on Earth. So is it getting over, that is my question? We are certainly heading to nowhere!

Vettel Grabs The Glory - F1 2010

So close yet so very, very far, these are perfect phrases for both Fernando Alonso and Mark Webber, both gave themselves chances for the title glory in 2010 but both failed and in this small fight for the title, Sebastian Vettel stole the show (and the title).

Vettel had missed out last year to Jenson Button (he didn't impress much this year), but this year, he got his chance for glory. Becoming Germany's second world champion, after Michael Schumacher (who in his comeback finished 9th), Vettel has made his impression as a driver to look out for in the future.

Sadly Schumacher's return to F1 was a bit disappointing, finishing 9th, with just 72 points certainly does not impress much. He also failed to finish the last race due to a crash with Liuzzi. All in all Sebastian Vettel deserved to win, it was not easy pushing this car all the time, but he did not give up hope and fought it till the last race - great goin.

Top 10 Drivers

1. Sebastian Vettel - 256

2. Fernando Alonso - 252

3. Mark Webber - 242

4. Lewis Hamilton - 240

5. Jenson Button - 214

6. Felipe Massa - 144

7. Nico Rosberg - 142

8. Robert Kubica - 136

9. Michael Schumacher - 72

10. Rubens Barrichello – 47

Constructors'

1. Red Bull / Renault - 498

2. McLaren / Mercedes - 454

3. Ferrari - 396

4. Mercedes - 214

5. Renault - 163

6. Williams / Cosworth - 69

7. Force India / Mercedes - 68

8. BMW Sauber / Ferrari - 44

9. Toro Rosso / Ferrari - 13

10. Lotus / Cosworth - N.A

11. HRT F1 / Cosworth - N.A

12. Virgin / Cosworth - N.A

Without A Feeling - Being Numb

When you had a fall

A fall down on the ground

You're left life-less, meaningless

You're left out without a feeling

You're numb!

We are all gifted with something or the other, sometimes with all of the good and sometimes with all of the bad. We are gifted with victories and defeats, happiness and sorrows, strength and weaknesses. Yes, we are all gifted with the good and the bad as well, but do we really know how to live with and without each of that?

When all of the good is happening in and around you, you feel like being one of the luckiest one who has ever lived on this planet, whereas if all of the bad things are happening in and around you, then you think otherwise. And you are the one who seem to complain at every step in those horrible times.

It is really hard to live in lie, a lie that everything is going to be alright, to wake up every morning and assume that it is going to be a great day, nothing can possibly go wrong. This life is not perfect, and one should also not try to assume or even try to make it perfect, because when reality strikes, it strikes hard, and it strikes so hard that you will not be able to rise up from that fall.

When bad times haunt you, they haunt you without any limits, you curse yourself, you wish to turn back time, sometimes you'd even wish you were dead. It is like living in a horrifying nightmare that will never seek to end. Sometimes you can just close your eyes, let yourself free, let yourself loose and imagine that there is noting wrong, all is okay, it is going to be alright, but the moment you open up your eyes again, you see it right in front of you, showing it's ugly face back at you.

Envy: That Human Feeling

I write this today because I really think that human feelings can really destroy lives, and especially, this particular feeling, of getting jealous, or envying others is not good. I envy because I am a Human Being, just like you, every Human Being has had this feeling, as it is inbound - right within us all, but like vise, the less of it, the better. It's something one cannot live with or without, but don't know why, sometimes this feeling called 'envy' can swallows up a person completely.

Well, I would just like to say that, it is not good to envy others, but try to be your own in every possible way. All we have to do is just live life to the fullest, of all of that we have done, and not what others are doing or done. And it is well said that, "Don't worry over what other people are thinking about you. They are busy worrying over what you are thinking about them".

Rolling The Dice

Some people think that I am not mature enough in life at my age, that I lack a sense of responsibility in life, but what can I really say, sometimes I feel like I've been in and out through things that I should not have at that stage in life. Many things have gone horribly wrong in life, things that were so disturbing, so painful that it kept putting me down all the time. Sometimes due to misjudgments, miscalculations, I had to face a lot of problems, lost a lot of hope in life, got sick and tired of every bit happing in life at some points, but I knew I had to move on. Some problems just kept following on like a shadow that is always behind us, like a curse. Trying to overcome it was like mounting through something very high, did not know whether to give it up or let is aside and move on.

But then I look at others, others who have gone through ever more, much more worse in life than me. And they've lived on, live on facing everything without any complain, living like it is just another day in life. Like that I still have to learn to get myself used to all that worst in life, and stand up on my two feet on my own and put up a fight with life.

It is so very true that we have to roll our own dice in this game called life. Sometimes we get good numbers, sometimes we don't, sometime we get the brighter side, sometimes not. All we have to do is to keep the faith in ourselves and carry on, taking steps forward in life!

2 Years On @ HDFC Bank

Wooah! What two years (two whole years in HDFC Bank, my very first job), so many ups and downs, I've now completed two years in HDFC Bank, joint it on the 22nd of August, 2008, my first job and two years seem like they just rushed through (too many things happening in life and at work, just did not know how the years just passed on by).

So, as I remember, I got a call from the HDFC Bank HR department, and I obviously had a go at it, gave my interview luckily got selected. Two years since then, it has been a great experience at HDFC Bank, learnt a lot, and still gearing for more.

Jack Of It All, And The Master Of None

In this world, today that we live in - if you say that you are the Master of it all, people are going to laugh at you, call you names, they'll never believe in you, they'll prove it to you that they know much better than you and then make you feel down and low. So today, in this insane world that we all live in, the sanest thing to say would be that I'm the Jack of it all and the Master of none.

Each day there is something new that comes up, something that may seem to be impossible but is so true. There are so many new things to be learnt, so many new horizons to explore, there are so many things out there to be conquered, to be seen, felt, and touched. There are so many amazing wonders out there, just waiting to pop up from ones wildest imaginations.

There is so much to see, so much to say, so much to learn, each step of out life is a new lesson to be learnt, another chapter in the book of our lives - so how can we ever be the Masters? How can we know all of it, when we know only so little? That is the only reason why I say that it is a sane choice to say, "I'm the Jack of it all, and the Master of none" and I say that is my mind and hearty open wide and clear.

Killin Time

And so, life goes on, a little small picnic here and there, but, I'm still not satisfied with it, because my heart wants more and more. I need a bigger break just to refresh myself completely, or a nice relaxed holidaying somewhere it would feel like Heaven - Yeah! That's what I'd love.

So now the branch has changed again, and don't know now where else would I be getting another transfer, or would I call it the quits? Well, till then it's running smooth and there are no such problems in life.

Whatz Up Next?

People always have to say something about you, some always talk good about you, some talk bad, some people, straight at your face talk of you, good as well as bad, these are the people who are the ones whom you call your best friends.

Well, I'm going through a lot of ups and downs in life, having to make a few small but very effective decisions on my own. Still clueless about where to my life is leading me to, but I'm just going in my own was, walking on and on and on, till the day comes when I'd have to find a place for me to finally rest. Now it feels like I'm walking on something completely unknown, earlier had the support of my family, so I knew kind-a where to walk, but then too there were many difficulties along the way, broken bridges, rocky roads, dark rooms, endless ways to go, but only one to choose. But now I'm kind-a walking alone, in a dark, dark unknown road, saw a light somewhere, tried to run towards it but fell down, I fell down somewhere in the middle of nowhere, there seems to be a way out but that way is not too easy to be found. In this life's mystery, everything seems to be faded.

Taking It One At A Time

Football Fever wondering who's going to win - Germany, Brazil, Argentina, Netherlands, Spain, Paraguay...? Then at Wimbledon, Federer loosing his crown and not being able to attend the final this time, wondering who is going to win here as well? Hoping for Nadal to win... F1 not sounding so intrusting as Michael Schumacher is not scoring and both Farrari drivers failing to give a good performance.

And then there are various other personal issues here in the mind, Job, Life, Health, House Under Construction, Vacation, Sat-off's, Rest, Sleep, Fun, Pleasure, Leisure, Work, Pressure, Stress, Sundays, Family, Manic Mondays, Finances, Tuesdays, Salary, Fire Mails, Thursdays, Fitness, Headache, Fridays, Pain, Busy Saturdays, Job Change, Oh! My God, So much of chaos in one mind, I think I really need a break, so let me set off to someplace where I'll have peace in my mind.

One Year On: A Tribute To The Magic Of Michael Jackson

He had the Magic, he had the spark and he was truly one of the greatest entertainer that ever lived (or existed on Earth). A year on after his death, he's made more than billions in his name (dead celebrities' earn a lot, but MJ has surpassed them all). He's got new admirers, new fans, the world now is feeling a sense of great loss in his absence. The Magic that now is lost would never be repeated again, for the magician is gone.

On the 25th of June, 2009, the world lost (I believe) one of its greatest gifts. A gift that was not yet done, and we all failed to see the magic live on the stage again, we failed to experience what would have been one of the greatest (comeback) live gigs ever. The dream left incomplete and a legacy lives on with no one to conquer it again, Michael left the world undone, the magic, the final vow left still incomplete.

Life's Really Been Tricky

What I mean to say here is that this life that we live in indeed really, really very tricky. Don't know what's coming up next, don't know where the next turn will lead you to, don't know how, where, there's gonna be a change in life. It really goes from nothing to something and from something to nothing, never everything (life is never fulfilling). There has always to be a time or a point in life where things go blank.

In this life we learn a lot of things everyday, in every step that we take, there's always some thing new to learn , one of the greatest things that we get to learn, I think is Human Nature. Yes, Human Nature is very important to be understood, but one can never understand it no matter what, because it depends upon person to person, situation to situation. Two people are never the same, and hence there are conflicts/misunderstandings between two people.

But one thing in life is sure, even though it is tricky, even though it is tough; change makes it even more challenging.

Fifty

Wooh, this is my fiftieth post, cool, and I have so far got fairly a good response here. It was nice that I got hooked on to this blogger thing, 'coz I really think that this is the only and the best way to shout your word out really loud and clear. "I'm Lovin' It" Yeah!

Only Just Begun

Maybe somewhere, someone has written down our lives, maybe on our hands or on our foreheads. But somewhere in our lives we do realise that someone or something is keeping a watch on you, following you, guiding you, protecting you, taking you places where you'd dare to explore.

Today we had the blessings done for the new house construction; the work had started about two to three months ago, from the breaking down the House to re-constructing it, the process has now reached to another level, as now the building process starts, still the memories of the old house remain.

When Pressure Drags You In

Only time can tell, whatever is written in your Life Story, really it is so hard to predict, when you feel that things will go smooth, something worst happens with me. I don't know why, but my life right now, specially in the last one month or two, has been bad, maybe more bad times are going to role by, who knows. Well, things sometimes are going horribly wrong and I am the one put on the scanner for that. At times, really I feel that life needed a Pause Button Seriously, because I need it just right now, feels like I should just hit on the pause button and relax for some time.

Well, everyone has to go round their rough patches time and time again, everyone has to carry their own crosses, if there's help, it's really good, but then you are always on your own here. I think the biggest thing that puts one down is 'Pressure'. The pressure to perform, to stand up to a task, to live this life that you are living right, to make everything that is alright. Pressure is everywhere, one just needs to find the right way of getting out of it.

So, let pressure not drag you in, face it, be brave, b'coz on the other side, there's light shining just for you, co come out into the light one more time, don't loose your hope.

Smooth Road Nowhere

It's going down, or falling out

In pressure could you find the grace?

When luck seems to be fading out

So where do we go now, when there seems to be no place safe, where do we start, when all starts seem to have come to a stop. Life is not yet on the track, the smooth road seems to have somehow disappeared complete out of the sight. All that is visible is a troubled time with too many ups and downs, but hey, then there are also some turnarounds. But these turnarounds are so hard to come your way at times.

Things now-a-days are really getting on to me these days, finding it a bit difficult to go on in life, seems that I'm stuck somewhere in a lone dark corner right now, with little I know how to move, but surely there's light there on the other side, presently the road I walk is not smooth, there's no light, but I know at the end there is light shining for me. And with this hope I walk this lonely road of mine, waiting and wishing for a good sign. Just need to hold on to anything and everything possible now...

WR: Batti Gull

Off lately the commuters of the Western Railways are daily facing an in-between power failure or can we stat it as power fluctuation, don’t know what really happens but, somewhere between Borivali-Daiser, Naigaon-Vasai Road and else where in between, there is a lot of power fluctuation happening, the lights (including the fans) go off inside the local train. This is now happening daily since almost a month now, seems strange as the voltage is now up by 25000 volts, such things should not happen. First it seems as if only the new local trains were having a problem, but after travelling in the older local trains, commuters face the same problem.

But do they (the WR officials) understand this problem, though it seems to be a minor problem now, it can turn up into a major problem just within days. Hope the locals don't stop functioning or start mal-functioning because of this problem, because, if it does, there are going to be a lot of problems for the commuters, who go up and down daily (including me).

Trouble Times...

So here I sit down here again to write something down with so many thoughts storming in within my mind, don't know what to say, what to write with all that is happening all around in my life. It's really getting a lot tricky at work; things are going in an unpleasant manner, some things, somewhere are crossing the line, my life is in a soup and I really need to get out of all this mess.

Things are really not working as good as I would like it all to be, but I think that there is a light somewhere at a far off distance, it cannot be seen but I seem to feel it deep inside me. I know I would get out of all the mess created now, but when? Only time can tell.

And Life Still Goes On...

Okay, so there are many things happening on in my life right now, some things I can understand, whereas some things are too uneasy to be understood. And life is still going at it's annoying blend of pace here, 'fast when needed slow, and slow when needed fast', well, that's the way it goes generally I guess, but it's really annoying.

Well, it's been almost a month now and the mighty 'Bella-Kunj' has still not been grounded, little hammer work still remains and so does the cleaning and clearing up work. And in all of this I'm still wondering, when the new house will finally be complete.

Say, I'm in a new branch now, and it's been more than three weeks, I'm at the Vishal Hall branch, at Andhari (East). It's quiet good, learning a lot here, it's a bigger branch, so more transactions at the teller counter, and on top of it all I'm there as the main cashier, cool, life is rolling with unexpected things one by one. Every time there are things rolling out that are totally unexpected, but yet challenging, looking forward in this new task as Main Teller in HDFC Bank - Vishal Hall. There were a few hick-ups but thinking that I am getting the hang of it, hope to make it through properly.

EGO: That Human Feeling

Well, it's only a three letter word but it surely can change more than a million things. It's something one cannot live with or without, one has to be egoistic and at the same time non-egoistic in life. But don't know why, sometimes this feeling called 'ego' swallows up a person so much that everything said and done against his will, is like committing a sin.

Yes, even I am egoistic, but not to the level I've seen in a lot of people. Sometimes one can be so egoistic that he doesn't want to listen or believe anything anyone wants to say to him, an egoistic person will always want to prove to the world that he is always right, and the others are totally wrong. They are also very selfish or self-centered; they only look what is better for them and care a damn for anyone else.

I write this today because I really think that this human feeling can really destroy lives, it's even worse than 'hate'. But one thing is really very true, too much ego is not good but too little is also not good, today one has to be 'self-centered' in a way, has to take care of himself. And certainly not go on and boost about self, how well off or whatever he is.

At the end I'd just like to say that, we all need to be egoistic, but in a gentle way, not by hurting the feelings of others around, just live life to the fullest and also do look back (be humble) at times.

House Being Torn Down But It's Wimbledon All The Way

"Murray beaten by master Federer" read the headline on the Wimbledon website, and it was quiet a fight but Murray did not meet the excellence that Federer put before him. Federer now has his 16th grand slam title and fourth at Melbourne Park (The Australian Open), surely proves the dominance of this pure genius at play.

And at the other end of the World, here in India at my home... well our house is getting torn down to make way for a brand new one. Our 46 year old Mansion (House) has lived long to tell it's own tale...well if it could...

Now we are only waiting for it all to come down, get cleared and a new house to come in it's place. There are endless memories inside the head about the house, watching it at the state it was now in really made me feel bad, but as people say... We got to move on in life...

Waiting for the day when our new house will be completely build and we will enter in it with a hope that it will last for a long time... long to tell it's own tale...

Shifted!

Now, everyone was building a house, I really mean renovating / improvising their houses all around us, and we were planning to do the same long ago. We wanted to build a proper house but there were a few problems within the family. But now thanks to mutual talks and corporation from a few, we will finally be building our very own house.

This sounds great, but it's gonna take long, don't really know how long but it's worth the wait. We have a lot of plans for the new house, hope all things fall in place and everything goes smooth.

Well, previously we and our uncle used to live in a bungalow type house (they used to live downstairs and we, upstairs) now we are getting separate homes for ourselves, to minimize the tensions and everything.

And for now we've shifter over to a relatives place, till our house is done...

Anyways, hoping for the best, till next time...